Sunday, January 29, 2017

Woman of Wolves Playlist

I've been working on these character playlists all weekend and am pretty excited by how they're turning out. This is one for Shadow, the wolf turned woman. Enjoy!

https://open.spotify.com/user/1254565272/playlist/1w9o3vaZWxicY7h2LF9r9m

Wild Things—Alessia Cara

“Leave us alone, we don’t need your policies
We have no apologies for being
Find me where the wild things are.”
               
Fast as You Can –Fiona Apple

“I let the beast in too soon
I don’t know how to live without
My hand on his throat, I fight him always and still.”

Wolves—Josh Ritter

“I started listening to the wolves in the timber
The wolves in the timber at night
I heard their songs when I looked in the mirror
In the howls and the moons around my eyes.”

Wild Eyes—Paul Baribeau

“We’re not those kids anymore
I’ve never seen wild eyes like yours before.”

Strange Girl—The Airborne Toxic Event

“We traded blindness
For wisdom and some lines around our eyes
But you just act like
It was a fact of life, it didn’t come as a surprise.
You’re such a strange girl.”

Howl—Laura Marling

This entire song is so perfect for Shadow. I think all the lyrics are pretty applicable, and the tone of the music really seems to fit.

“Kissing the rain off my shoulders
Answering questions with stares
Holding my chest like I’m a wild horse
‘bout to run away scared.

Howl at the moon, I’ll come find you.”

Rocks—Ryan Adams

This is another song where I think the entire thing is spot on for the Shadow character.

“I am not rock, I am not rain
I’m just another shadow in the steam
That’s been washed away after all these years
I am not rocks in the river
I am bursting into tears for it.
Another day is dawning.”

Desperado—Rihanna

“I can be a lone wolf with you
Gotta get up out of here
And you ain’t leaving me behind
I know you won’t,
Cuz we share common interests.”

Hearts Unknown—The Menzingers

“Hearts unknown
Beat alone
Who’s god will save your soul?”

The Cave—Mumford and Sons

“I’ll find strength in pain
I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again.”

Carnivore—Jewel

To be honest, I mostly picked this song because it’s called “Carnivore” and it’s one of my favorites. But, it fits with the playlist.

“I used to know you
But not anymore
Your substance has been subtracted
Word by word.”

Magpie to the Morning—Neko Case

“You run an airtight mission,
A Cousteau expedition
To find a diamond at the bottom of the drain.”

Come as you Are – Nirvana

“Come as you are,
As you were,
As I want you to be.”

The Beast – Laura Marling

“I’d suggest that you be grateful
That it’s your blood on my hands
And assume yourself weaker
The fall of man
And lookout for the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me

Here come the beasts.”

Saturday, January 28, 2017

The Pansy Playlist


When I was a pre-teen/teenager, one of my favorite things to do was make mix CDs for myself and others. I took pride in my method of picking the perfect songs, ordering them to best contour the mood(s) of the CD, and of course, creating the liner notes. I made many TROUF mix CDs, some of which are still my favorite throw-back jams today. The first of these TROUF CDs was titled "Alaster's Pansy Kinda Punk Mix", which featured pop-punk favorites of mine that had contributed to the creation of his character. To honor that original CD, this playlist is titled "The Pansy Playlist." These are all songs that weren't on the original mix, but still capture the pop-punk feel I associate with Alaster. Enjoy!

https://open.spotify.com/user/1254565272/playlist/7vSFlJOnTIMsdeR8mKfEwR

The Obituaries – The Menzingers
“I’m just freaking out, yeah I’ll be fine…
But I will fuck this up, I fucking know it”
                 
Carried Away –Passion Pit
I imagine this song as a lover’s quarrel between Blue and Alaster.
Blue is the first verse and Alaster is the second verse, and both come together in the chorus
                               
Verse 1: “Since my heart is golden,
I’ve got sense to hold in,
Tempted just to make an ugly scene.
No I’m not as proper
My money’s in copper
Ripped down from the brownstones to the streets.”

Verse 2: “All your appealing,
Once again with feeling,
Higher education making sense.
Justify your thesis
Certain that you need this
Tell me what your point is in defense.”

Chorus: “I get carried away, carried away from you
When I’m open and afraid and I’m
Sorry, sorry bout that, sorry bout
Sorry bout things that I’ve said,
Always let it get to my head.”
               
Beer—Reel Big Fish

“If I get drunk well I’ll pass out on the floor now baby
You won’t bother me no more
And if you’re drinking well I’ll know that you’re my friend
And I’ll say Hey, I think I’ll have myself a beer”

Something New—Airborne Toxic Event

“I’ve got this heavy debt
I’ve got nothing left
But this daunting weight
Slung round my neck” – could that weight be a magical crystal, perhaps??
               
A Lifeless Ordinary – Motion City Soundtrack

“I think I can figure it out,
But I’m gonna need a little help to get me through it.”
               
Work Song—Hozier

“And I was burning up a fever
I didn’t care much how long I lived
I swear I thought I dreamed her
She never asked me once about the wrong I did.”

FourFiveSeconds—Rihanna, Kanye West, Paul McCartney

“I think I’ve had enough
I might get a little drunk
I say what’s on my mind
I might do a little time”

I Can’t Seem to Tell – The Menzingers

To me, this entire song is so spot on for Alaster. Every lyric is applicable.

“Remember the days when I had a conscience?
Yeah, me neither.
I’m warning, I’m warning, I’m warning you
That I can’t seem to tell if it’s my head or the earth
That’s spinning around.”
               
Mirrors—Justin Timberlake

While this song is supposed to be about a romantic partner, I totally hear it as a twin love (between two twins) song.

“I’m looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now”

You Go Down Smooth—Lake Street Dive

“I am afraid to need you so
And I am too sober not to know
That you may be my problem
Not my love.”

Flagpole Sitta—Harvey Danger

“I’m not sick, but I’m not well
And it’s so hot, cuz I’m in hell.
Been around the world and found that
Old stupid people are breeding
The cretins cloning and feeding.”

Rehab—Amy Winehouse

“I ain’t got the time, and if my daddy thinks I’m fine…”

Evil Friends—Portugal. The Man

Typically, I this song makes me think of Vegeta from DBZ. But, I feel it is also applicable to Alaster, as they have similar personality traits.

“It’s not because the light here is brighter
And it’s not that I’m evil, I just don’t like to pretend
That I could ever be your friend,
I could never be your friend
I don’t wanna be friends,
I never needed a friend.”

Where Is My Mind? – The Pixies

Self-explanatory.

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Get Some Sleep

At present, it was a wonder Blue was standing. For days now, she'd been subjected to the whims of the Codex Crystal with an almost constant stream of information. It was as though the crystal was rearranging Blue's mind to house it all, far too much for one person to think about all of the time. It made it hard to determine what was reality when she could see so many memories at the same time. She was starting to think it would make her go mad.

She wasn't going to complain. This was for the greater good, and she'd always said she believed in doing the right thing. She'd been drafted into this war but if she didn't play along, a lot of innocent people would be the ones suffering for it. Keeping her focus strong was the only coping skill she could employ. Alcohol was right out, since she was already dizzy and nauseous.

Plus, she knew all this stuff now. Like, lots of stuff, more stuff than she could have before comprehended. That was saying something, since Blue was possessed of a remarkable memory and a thirst for knowledge. She knew all about the crystals and their first owners, and the Library of Skye, where nelfkins had worked as librarians. She knew about her people, everything that had been lost. She knew about everyone else too, the fairies and the elves, the humans, the dwarves, even the wild beasts.

This Leffi, who had owned the Codex once, was a rather worldly person. Blue had traveled a lot and read whatever she could get her hands on, but Leffi was on another level. The elf had traveled the realm for the express purpose of learning. She'd immersed herself in other cultures. She'd lived a full life, for what time she'd had.

Next to this person, Blue felt terribly inadequate. Her ears drooped as she walked, so she pulled up her hood to hide them. The hood also helped to block out the bright sun, which was starting to give her a headache on top of it all.

She glanced curiously over at Alaster, who hadn't said anything to her since her conversation with Skye. The fairy, it turned out, had been looking at her, but he turned bright red and quickly looked away, muttering under her breath, so Blue took pity on him and didn't ask about it. It was nice that he was paying attention, anyway. She'd been starting to think that no one would notice her rather uncharacteristic lethargy.

When they finally stopped for the night to rest, Blue eagerly broke off from the group for a little quiet in the woods. Her ears were ringing and she was, frankly, exhausted. She was less dizzy now than she had been, so that was something, but she felt like she could sleep for days. She was kind of afraid to go to sleep, actually, because what if she just couldn't wake up again until she was sufficiently recovered? And Jill knew how long that would take. Yeah, probably days.

If she was unconscious for days, it was hard to fucking tell what trouble this bunch would get themselves into. No, that simply was not an option.

“Nelfkin? The hell are you doing out here?” Alaster's voice interrupted Blue's thoughts and she scowled at him. Hadn't it been obvious that she wanted to be alone? “Look, are you alright? Not that I care, I just... You looked like you could use a drink.”

“Booze isn't the answer to everything,” she snapped as she turned around to look at him. She blinked when she saw that he was offering her his water canteen. “Oh. Actually, that probably would help. Uh, thanks Al.”

“Yes, you're welcome,” Alaster sneered, but he handed over his canteen. He was frowning, as per usual. Another time, Blue might have found it endearing. Right now, she was just too tired.

She made a decision and took a seat on the ground, too tired to stay upright at this point. Patting the forest floor next to her, she said, “Come over here and talk to me. I don't think it's a good idea for me to go to sleep right now and if someone doesn't talk to me, I might just pass out anyway.”

“What?” Alaster panicked, his brow creasing in concern. “Why can't you go to sleep? Is it that damn crystal's fault?”

Blue cracked a smile. “Yours messed with your head, didn't it?”

“Indeed. It was horrible.” Alaster lowered himself to the ground and sat cross-legged. “However, you look more like you just got the shit kicked out of your mind by an evil warlock. Trust me, I know the look when I see it.”

Blue shook her head. “I suppose I can see the similarities, but it's not quite like what happened to you with Detraf, it's not an attack, it's just... It's too much, all at once. I know all of these things that I'm pretty sure I shouldn't know, and frankly, I don't know what to do with it all. My mind is just tired from thinking about all of this new stuff. I'm afraid that if I go to sleep, it'll be a while before I wake up again.”

“Oh.” Alaster picked at an invisible thread on the sleeve of his tunic. Looking at him a little closer, Blue noticed the dark circles beneath his eyes that were even more prominent than usual. He looked as tired as she felt.

“You idiot, you're not sleeping, are you?”

He blinked at her in surprise. “What? Of course I'm sleeping. ...Sometimes.”

“Sometimes? Like when? Like when you pass out from sheer exhaustion because a mortal body can only go without sleep for so long?” Blue jabbed him in the shoulder disapprovingly, and then drank the last of the water in the canteen before handing it back to him. “Cain't say I blame you. Who knows if that bastard could catch you like that again? If it was me, I doubt I'd be able to sleep at all.”

Her companion's complexion was quite pale now, more so than usual. Alaster swallowed and looked away from her.

“Then you understand,” he said.

“Understanding it don't mean I approve.” Blue jabbed his shoulder again. “You have to sleep. Don't be stupid.”

“So do you,” Alaster pointed out. “Look, go to sleep. If you don't wake up in the morning, I'll, I dunno, visit your dreams and make you wake up.”

“You do not know that you could actually do that,” said Blue.

“It worked with Artemis,” Alaster defended.

“Jill, I can't believe you.”

“Shut up and sleep, woman. If you pass out tomorrow, I'm sure as hell not carrying you.”

Blue burst out laughing at the thought of Alaster carrying her. Alaster gave her a dirty look and it only made her laugh harder. She reached out and patted his knee comfortingly.

“Sorry, Al, it's just, well, you're not the strongest fella here, are you?” she said as her laughter faded to chuckles. “Okay, I'll sleep so you don't have to carry me.”

“I said I wasn't going to carry you,” Alaster grumbled.

“Yeah, you always say one thing when you mean the exact opposite. I've got you figured out now.” Blue grinned at the fairy, then settled down on the ground to use her pack as a headrest. “You get some sleep too, Al. If anything's going to happen, you might as well face it. Don't let the fucker have the satisfaction of making you afraid.”

Her eyelids were already drooping. She was so tired. Maybe she'd wake up on the morrow refreshed, and able to actually use the Codex Crystal for a change.

“Sure, nelfkin,” Alaster replied. He reclined against a tree, looking like he had no intention of closing his eyes unless he absolutely had to. “Shut up and go to sleep already.”


“What do you think they're doing over there?” asked Artemis. The rest of the group had made a campfire and now they were playing a card game with a deck of cards that Sir Gwuryn carried. He called the game 'gin rummy,' and was presently in the lead.

Fae cast a glance over at Alaster and Blue. “Oh, they're just talking. They've been doing that lately, isn't it nice? I think they've decided to be friends.”

“Bizarre,” said Kniles, arching an eyebrow.

“I think they're cute friends!” said Zi with a broad smile, which melted into a frown as she examined her hand of cards.

“They're making out,” said Gwuryn.

“What? No they're not. I can see them, they're literally right there.” Kniles scratched his head in confusion.

“Maybe they're not making out yet,” said Gwuryn. “I give it a week, tops. Rummy on the board.”

“Damn it,” cursed Shadow and she commenced to gnawing on the edges of her cards in agitation.

“I don't understand,” said Zi, blinking.

Artemis sighed and rolled her eyes. “The nelfkin and the fairy are falling in love. It's so cliché.”

“You guys!” Fae scolded them. “I think it's cute, leave them alone.”

“If anyone is interested, I'm open to falling madly in love with any of you charming ladies,” Gwuryn offered cheerfully.


“Somehow, I find it within my power to resist that tempting offer,” replied Artemis before laying down all of her cards and winning the hand.

- Rachel  

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

The Elf and the Nelfkin

A/N: This story follows immediately after the events of "Introductions." - Rachel

“Who is this person you know who can help us get into Vana Vale?”

Blue glanced at the elf walking a step behind her. They'd set out from the tavern at once, mostly because Blue feared that too many cutthroats there had been made aware of Zi's wealth. The elf seemed rather naive and Blue could only imagine what trouble she might had gotten herself into if she'd been left to her own devices. She was a pleasant enough traveling companion thus far, though rather talkative.

“I don't know her myself,” Blue explained. “I only know of her reputation. She is a fairy with no magic, but skilled with a sword. They call her Fae, and I have heard tell that she is kind and fair. They say she has fought men under the command of Lord Detraf who came from the east to claim territory in his name. If there is a fairy in the realm who would help us enter Vana Vale, I am confident that it must be her.”

In truth, she did not know what to expect of this mysterious fairy warrior. In her experience, fairies were an unpleasant sort, prone to snobbery and also rather greedy. They hoarded their communal magic jealously and didn't trust strangers. But the stories she'd heard of Fae, the warrior fairy who lived alone in a woodsman's cottage in the deep of Calben Forest, were quite impressive. It seemed that Fae tended to fight for the underdog and had made a name for herself as a person of great moral standing.

Zi contemplated Blue's words, her pretty face wearing a quizzical expression. “What happens if we track her down and she refuses to help us?”

“Then I will forgive the extra charge for my fee and guide you to Vana Vale, but leave you at the gates. It's the best that I can do, I'm afraid.”

It wasn't that Blue wanted to abandon the elf, but she was afraid of Vana Vale. Fairies were some of the worst in the realm when it came to their treatment of nelfkins. Blue would help Zi as best she could, but she would not throw away her life needlessly, not when her mother was still relying on her. The life of a guide was dangerous enough but Blue did not take unnecessary risks.

The elf's smile drooped, and she started to wring her hands. “And if Lady Fae does agree to help us, would you also agree to continue with me and help me to find the spell I need?”

“Well... I could perhaps help you further, but I'd rather not step foot in Vana Vale if I can avoid it.” Blue was hesitant to speak of her fears, but the elf was harmless enough and it didn't hurt to be honest, when it was possible. “Fairies don't take kindly to my sort.”

“What sort? Guides?”

Zi's confusion was genuine and it gave Blue pause. Did the elf not understand how others in the realm looked down on nelfkins? Blue hadn't interacted with many elves, but those she'd seen from a distance had seemed mostly a rather haughty sort that didn't spare much attention for a lowly little nelf like her.

“Nelfkins,” Blue corrected. When Zi still looked confused, Blue sighed and explained further. “People don't like us. Some taverns won't even let me in the door. Fairies are worse than most, I've heard they'll kill a nelfkin as soon as look at one.”

Now Zi looked rather alarmed. “I've never met a nelfkin in person before. You're cousins to elves, right? Hey, does that mean we're cousins?” She brightened, as though the idea of it brought her great joy.

In truth, Blue had no idea if elves and nelfkins were cousins. She'd heard the assertion before but she'd never read any book that gave credence to the theory. There weren't many books that mentioned nelfkins at all. Blue had often thought the lack of information about her people made it seem like someone had once made every effort to scrub them from existence. And yet, her people had persevered, and still fought tooth and nail to survive.

“I don't think it would make you and me cousins,” Blue explained to Zi, though she didn't think she'd mind being related to the elf. Zi seemed naive, but Blue could tell that she had a good heart. She also knew that something weighed heavy on the elf that she'd yet to admit to the guide. “So, why do you need this spell book we're going after?”

The elf's eyes widened and then she turned her gaze to the ground, as if she were ashamed. “I've done a terrible thing. It is difficult to speak of it...”

“Then I'll speak of it for you,” came another voice, from the elf's lips no less, but it sounded very different. A serious scowl crossed Zi's face that looked as though it really did not belong on her features. “This idiot was irresponsible with her spell work and I got dragged into it. She needs the spell book so she can restore my body! Until then, I'm stuck in her body.”

Zi's whole body seemed to sag as her expression changed to one of abject misery. “Yuna, I said I'm sorry, please don't call me names...”

For a long moment, Blue could only stare at the elf as she tried to digest the information she'd just been given.

“So... You have another person in there?” she asked finally, finding that the concept made very little sense to her. How was it possible for there to be two people in one body? Then again, it had to do with magic, she supposed, and Blue understood next to nothing about magic. “A person named Yuna?”

“Just her soul,” Zi explained, twiddling her thumbs. She still wouldn't meet Blue's gaze. “Her body is kind of... gone. Which is why I need the spell book! It really was an accident, you see, and now I must rectify my actions before I can continue my journey. I was supposed to meet with a friend but I... I cannot face him until I have made this right.”

Blue was very glad that she was not possessed of magic herself and therefore could not get herself into such a predicament. She felt bad for Zi, too. “What's it like, having another person in there? Do you share your thoughts with her?”

“No,” said Zi, “we don't hear each others' thoughts. That would make things a bit easier.”

“When I have something to say, I have to speak using her mouth,” spoke up the other voice, the one Blue now knew was called Yuna. “Being stuck in here is driving me mad. Please, I'm begging you, help her find that spell book. She'll end up getting us both killed if she tries to sneak into Vana Vale by herself, you know what fairies do to intruders.”

“Yuna, you're so mean,” whimpered Zi, tears gathering in her eyes. “I swear I'm going to get your body back for you.”

It was bizarre, watching Zi's face shift and hearing her voice change as she and Yuna spoke back and forth. Blue could only imagine what it must be like to be Yuna, trapped in someone else's body and only able to speak to her host by speaking out loud with Zi's lips.

“I'll try,” Blue agreed reluctantly, because she couldn't bring herself to abandon the elf and her accidental passenger. “I'll do what I can.”

In fact, she was not sure what she could do for Zi if it turned out that they could not find Fae, or if the warrior fairy refused to help them. People said Fae had once been a slave in Vana Vale, before she was cast out entirely. Perhaps she would not want to go back to the place that had caused her so much pain. Then again, perhaps she would be more inclined to help steal from the city, given her history with the other fairies.

Night settled early, and soon it was too dark to keep walking, the moon hidden behind clouds. Blue called a halt to their journey and set about making a fire. Zi offered to help by casting a spell but Blue waved her away, feeling apprehensive about being in Zi's presence when the elf used her magic. She didn't want to end up like Yuna, after all, or worse. Though Blue wasn't entirely sure that death would be worse than being stuck in someone else's body.

Zi seemed disheartened by Blue's refusal of her help and sat down on the ground, drawing her knees to her chest, while she watched Blue gather dry grass and sticks. Blue took out her flint and steel and sparked a blaze with her gathered materials that was small, but afforded them some light to see by.

The nelfkin sat down on the ground near Zi and carefully poked the elf with her walking stick. Zi looked up at her with a forlorn expression. The elf's own staff lay on the ground near her but Zi did not touch it, as though she was trying to purposely avoid it.

“You look upset,” Blue said. It was obvious that Zi needed some reassurance. “You wanna talk about it?”

“I'm not worthy of my position,” Zi said mournfully. She gazed at Blue, like she was willing the other to understand how she felt. “I don't know why the spell went wrong, but I must have messed it up somehow. I don't even know if the spell book I'm looking for really has the spell I need. I cannot go home, for I have not completed my journey. I miss my home and my friends. How can I be high sorceress of Ar one day if I cannot even manage my own spells properly?”

“High sorceress?” Blue's eyes nearly bugged out of her head. She'd not had any clue how important the elf was. Sure, Zi wore fine clothing and had plenty of money, but that was elves for you. Blue had never met one that didn't look like royalty. Granted, she'd only met a few to begin with. “So you're a big deal back home?”

She thought perhaps that talking about home would cheer Zi up. Of course, there was always the chance that it would have the opposite effect, but Blue wasn't certain of what else to do. Comforting people was not something she had a lot of experience with, but she had learned over the years how to be a decent listener and conversationalist. Such skills came in handy to guides, who often had to travel long distances with their clients. It only made sense to befriend those she had to travel with.

“Well...” Zi still looked on the verge of tears but she held them back. “I guess so. I've been studying since I was small so that one day I can serve my people as their high sorceress. Once I've completed this journey, I'll be able to do that. But I'm not sure I deserve to be high sorceress, not if my magic hurts other people like it did to Yuna.”

“Why do you want to be high sorceress?” asked Blue. It sounded to her like a very big job and not something she'd want to take on, personally. Zi didn't seem like the sort of person who craved power or authority, either.

Zi cracked a smile, finally. “I don't have a choice. It has been my destiny since I was born and since my mother disappeared...” Her voice cracked a little. “I must take her place as soon as possible. It's what I've been groomed for my whole life.”

The nelfkin's ears drooped in sympathy for her companion. “That must be hard, having all that responsibility. How old are you, Zi?”

“Seventeen,” Zi sniffled. “I'm the youngest journeyman in the history of Ar.”

“Wow, really?” Blue had suspected that Zi was young, though it was hard to tell with elves. However, she had not expected that Zi was only seventeen. She would be an adult by nelfkin standards, but only barely. Then again, Blue had left home to start her career as a guide when she was seventeen herself. “That's quite impressive. Your abilities must be quite special.”

“Oh. You think?” Zi wiped her eyes on her sleeve and her smile grew a little brighter. “Even though I messed up and destroyed Yuna's body?”

“Especially because of that. Wouldn't that sort of thing take very powerful magic to accomplish? I am sure that you will master your sorcery, given time. You're a good person, and you're doing your best to fix the thing that you messed up. One day, you'll be a great high sorceress.”

It surprised Blue to discover that she truly meant what she was saying. She didn't know Zi very well but already she could tell that the elf was exceedingly compassionate. Zi was truly repentant for what she had accidentally done to Yuna.

“Don't coddle her.” Speaking of Yuna, the disembodied soul was once again using Zi's face to scowl. “She's a good person but she's an idiot! She trusts every person we come across, never suspects that anyone will do her harm. Before we ran into you, I was certain she was going to get us into a huge mess trying to travel on her own.”

“But Yuna,” Zi whined. “I'm trying my best.”

“Didn't they teach you anything about journeying back in Ar?” growled Yuna. “They could have at least taught you to read a map.”

“I can read maps,” insisted the elf. “And we would have been alright. Nothing bad has happened to us so far. Well, except for your body... and I'm really sorry about that! Truly!”

Blue's head was starting to hurt. She rubbed her temples and sighed, marveling at her strange luck. At least she would have a good story to share with her mother when she got back home. If she ever made it back home, she thought to herself, because she was coming to realize that her conscience would not allow her to leave Zi to her own devices. For a nelfkin, trying to steal from Vana Vale was as good as having a death wish, for the fairies would have no mercy if they caught her. Despite her skills as a guide, Blue was not a professional thief by any means, and her skills in combat were limited to self-defense with her walking stick.

“Get some rest,” she urged her companion, stoking up the fire a bit. “I'll keep watch for a while. On the morrow, we'll continue our journey and I am confident we will find Fae, and she will help us acquire your spell book. Everything will be fine.”

This seemed to reassure Zi a great deal, for she settled down on the ground with her hand lain on her pack and her cloak drawn around her body for warmth. She stared into the little fire until her eyes began to droop, and soon she was softly snoring.

Blue huffed, wondering how she got herself into these situations. She murmured a prayer to Jill over the fire, though she was beginning to think the goddess of luck had a strange sense of humor. Drawing out the blue crystal she wore around under her blouse, Blue stared at it, wondering if it had any connection to the clear stone that Zi wore. Certainly, Blue felt somehow drawn to Zi's crystal, and she wondered if Zi felt a similar connection to hers without realizing it.

She probably should mention it all to Zi. Still, though she thought she could trust Zi, she had only known the elf for a few hours. The blue crystal was her most valuable possession and a memento of her late father, so she was scared of letting others know that she wore it. The realm was rife with thieves, after all, and Zi herself was planning to steal a book from the fairy colony, after all.

In truth, Blue didn't know anything about her crystal, except that it was beautiful and her father had discovered it on one of his own journeys. Perhaps it was nothing special, just a pretty bauble made by a skilled craftsman. Maybe it was made by elves and all of them wore such jewelry. Regardless of its origins, Blue was protective of it. If she lost it, she wasn't sure what she would do.

Tucking the crystal beneath her shirt once more, Blue pulled the hood of her coat over her head to ward off the chill. The cold air was starting to nip at the ends of her ears and her nose.

Blue wasn't certain what the future would bring, but at least for tonight she had a pocket full of coin and the promise of more. If she could help the elf, she would. Hopefully, she wasn't getting herself in over her head.

~ END

Monday, January 23, 2017

In the Library of Skye

A/N: It might seem a little strange that we've started posting stories about the quest that came before the quest we usually write about. It feels fitting to me, since this is how things happened when we were role playing. We were in the middle of our story when we suddenly asked "well, what came before this?" And thus Proto-TROUF was born. These stories take place many, many years in the past, although we never really decided how many. This story features the first user of the Codex Crystal, Leffi. - Rachel

In The Library of Skye

Every story has a beginning. Sometimes you think you've started at the beginning but it turns out, you actually started halfway through. You start to realize that every beginning is the end of another story, a story that has it's own beginning, from a long line of other stories with other beginnings. There is always something else that came before.

For Leffita, scholar elf of the Library of Skye, there was nothing more fascinating than tracking down as many stories and beginnings as she could get her hands on. This was understandable, since she'd grown up in the great Library, a wonder to all who lived in the realm, a storehouse for innumerable written materials that chronicled a patchwork history. Even as a small elf, it was her habit to get herself lost in the “stacks,” as the great collection of books was often called. Her parents never doubted that she should become a scholar. It seemed a natural fit.

And it was a good fit in many ways, but the problem with Leffi was that she couldn't stay still. Oh, she could spend hours in one place reading a good book, but she couldn't spend more than a few days in one city before she was itching to travel again and see new places. She was on a never ending quest to learn new things, to see things she'd never seen before, as though she thought that if she just kept at it, one day she would have seen everything in the world worth seeing.

Her mother claimed that she inherited this from her father, who was half elf and half human, born to wanderers and a traveler himself once. After meeting Leffi's mother, her father settled down and his vagrant tendencies were passed down to his daughter and only child. As soon as she was old enough, Leffi began traveling, and now she'd been at it for over ten years.

On this day, she had returned to the Library after a long journey, bringing two ancient scrolls with her. She was in an exceptionally good mood, for though the journey had been hard, she had seen many wonderful things and achieved her goal of acquiring the scrolls for the Library.

She skipped up the grand marble stairs to the entrance, pushing through the great doors with a grin on her face. The Library was very quiet, which was not unusual. Aside from boisterous Leffi, most scholars of the Library preferred to have quiet during their studies. One or two elves shushed Leffi even now as she made her way across the threshold to the Librarian's Desk.

The Librarian's Desk was as elaborate as the rest of the Library. It was huge and carved from marble as well, and at present it was piled high with books and scrolls to be inspected and added to the collection. Leffi peered around it, but found that there was no one there. She huffed a bit, impatient, and began to look around the large first floor for the person she knew had to be there somewhere.

“Prudence!” she called out, which resulted in a chorus of shushing from the elves studying. Leffi just made faces at the ones who gave her dirty looks and kept looking, checking behind shelves and in corners. “Pru, get over here, I brought you something!”

Overhead, Leffi heard what sounded like a tower of books falling on the second floor. A few moments later, a nelfkin woman came scuttling down the stairs to the main floor, her expression showing alarm. She glared at Leffi and put her hands on her hips.

“This is a library!” she hissed, keeping her voice to an angered whisper. “When will you ever learn!”

“Yeah, Pru, I know,” Leffi agreed, though she didn't bother whispering. She patted the Librarian on the head, which earned her a glare from her friend. “I brought you the scrolls I promised! Wait until you get a look at these, they're incredible. They cost a lot of money too. Good thing the Library pays for these things because I sure couldn't afford to do it myself. These cost us 300 gold pieces!”

Prudence's brown eyes grew wide with horror. “Leffi, that's two months worth of your stipend! You're not supposed to spend so much on new pieces!”

The Librarian's words fell on deaf ears because Leffi was already rolling out her new acquisitions on an empty table. The scrolls were very old and fragile, clearly from a bygone era, and the language was hard for even Leffi to completely understand.

“Aren't they beautiful?” the scholar asked with a sigh and she ran one finger along the delicate ink lettering. “I believe that it's a story of Skye and Terra. This could be the oldest one we've ever found. These scrolls absolutely had to be in the Library.”

Reluctantly, Prudence examined the scrolls and couldn't help but gasp at their quality. Leffi really had found a gem this time. “They're amazing. But do try to be a little quieter, there are people trying to study.”

“As you say, Pru,” Leffi agreed with an easy smile. They both knew she wouldn't remember to keep the volume down, but Prudence felt it was her duty as the Librarian to at least give it a try, so Leffi humored her.

Prudence was one of Leffi's oldest friends. They had studied together as children, and after Prudence was appointed as the Librarian, Leffi's adventuring became funded by the Library itself. Leffi had recovered many of the Library's most valuable assets in her travels and Prudence, while a stickler for rules, recognized that Leffi was irreplaceable.

Leffi and Prudence were as different as two people could be. The nelfkin was barely four feet tall, compared to Leffi's impressive height of five feet and nine inches. Prudence had straight black hair and caramel colored skin, where Leffi had a mass of tangled red curls piled high on her head and a seemingly perpetual farmer's tan. Even in dress, they were different. Leffi wore cotton trousers and a long, faded blue blouse that she never tucked in. Prudence preferred a tidy and practical black smock with a sensible blue trim.

In fairness, Leffi stood out among nelfkins and elves. She owed her height and red hair to her human heritage, as well as her poor eyesight that necessitated the pair of gold-rimmed glasses she always wore.

“So, what's the news of the realm?” asked Prudence as she rolled the scrolls back up and hefted them in her arms. “I've heard some troubling rumors about monsters ransacking small villages.”

Leffi followed Prudence back to the desk, where the nelfkin stashed the scrolls among the other items waiting to be properly filed. “Monsters, yes. Gruesome things, really, and there have been reported sightings in a number of places. A few large attacks. I met a cleric who called them 'corrupted,' whatever that means. Some people are saying it's a curse from the gods, but I think that's a bit silly.”

“Displeasing the gods can be catastrophic.” Prudence gave Leffi a look, one that she often gave her friend when she thought Leffi was being too flippant or disrespectful. The Librarian began stacking tomes on a small cart. “It is wise to always speak of them with reverence, especially here in the house of our Lord Skye.”

Privately, Leffi figured that if Skye didn't care for how flippant she was, he would have done something about it long before now. She was hardly his most devoted follower, even if she had just recovered those scrolls. She did not, for instance, attend to her prayers each morning like her fellow scholars, and she did not ask for his guidance. The truth was, Leffi didn't like the idea of answering to anyone, not even a god.

Now Prudence was pushing the cart through the main room and Leffi trailed after her as she continued her report. “As best I could tell, the corrupted are like wild beasts. Someone even told me that they were wild beasts, once, and that something changed them. I think that's where the name comes from. I didn't meet any of them myself, luckily, but people say they are mindless, driven only by a need for destruction. It might be something of concern to the Library, if they continue to spread.”

Her friend pushed the cart down an aisle of shelves. Prudence gathered a few books off the cart and then set about climbing a rolling ladder attached to the shelf in order to shelve the books in their proper place. This despite the fact that Leffi could have reached the shelf for her without using the ladder. Prudence was quite stubborn about managing her job without assistance, though her height made it somewhat difficult. All nelfkins who worked in the Library took the job seriously and would not allow their elf companions to do their work for them. Leffi had long since stopped offering, as Prudence would sometimes become offended by it.

In fairness, the nelfkins were very good at their work. Even though their height necessitated the rolling ladders installed on every shelf, they were quick and efficient and hardly anything in the Library was ever out of place. Prudence managed the entire Library herself, but she had a number of nelfkins working below her. Shelving usually fell to them, but Prudence often did the work herself. She liked to see things done right.

“Anyway, I couldn't tell you why it's happen – Ouch!” Leffi stopped mid-sentence, as a book from the shelf Prudence was working on had fallen and hit her squarely on the head. “In the name of Skye, that hurt!”

Prudence did not look surprised as Leffi handed the book back to her. “You have very bad luck, Leffita. It's a wonder you're not dead yet, truly.”

“Don't use my full name, it makes you sound like my mother,” Leffi huffed. It was true, however. Since she was a young girl, her luck had been terrible. Some people thought she was clumsy, because she often bumped into furniture or tripped in holes, but Leffi knew it was her bad luck. Her tea went cold before she could drink it, and her mail often got lost, and if she kept money in her pockets, it would disappear before she could spend it.

“You should pray to Jill for forgiveness,” Prudence told her, not for the first time.

Leffi waved her hand dismissively. “Oh, that's silly. I'm sure she hasn't cursed me. I was a little kid when that happened anyway, how could she stay mad at me?”

She was referring to an incident that had occurred when she was twelve. Having always been fond of the nelfkins she studied and worked with, especially Pru, she had once attended a prayer circle for the goddess Jilna, patron of nelfkins and also the goddess of luck. The prayer circle had involved candles and Leffi had, quite by accident, set the effigy of Jilna, a beautiful handmade doll, on fire. Ever since, her luck had been miserable, but she was certain the two things were unrelated.

It was Leffi's belief that the gods did not take so active a role as many people believed. After all, sightings of them were few and far between. Who knew how many of those sightings were true? Leffi had certainly never seen a god, and she worked in the Library of Skye.

On the other hand, she had never tried praying for Jilna's forgiveness. She wasn't going to, either, mostly because she was stubborn and didn't like to do what people told her to do. If that meant she had to live with a bit of bad luck, she was okay with it. Bad luck wasn't the worst problem to have, anyway. Nothing truly horrible had ever happened to her.

“How long will you be staying?” Prudence asked as she pushed the cart out of the aisle and down a few shelves to another. She worked quickly, and had already made a sizable dent in the contents of the cart. “You should come to dinner this evening.”

“Sure,” Leffi agreed. She didn't need much prompting to accept such an invite. Prudence had a large family that lived together in a traditional nelfkin home, large and full of rooms so that the whole family could stay together instead of moving out into their own houses. Most nelfkins preferred the communal lifestyle this offered, even Prudence, who was a bit of a loner for a nelfkin. “I'll probably leave tomorrow evening. I've got a lead on a spell book that the elders will be thrilled with.”

They continued to chat, with Leffi standing by uselessly while Prudence worked. Leffi had never been much bothered by this, as she didn't have a head for organizing like Prudence did. She was a traveling scholar, and not a librarian, for a good reason. Prudence probably would not have allowed her to help to begin with, as Leffi never put books in quite the right place.

When she'd emptied her cart, Prudence said she needed to go back to the second floor and clean up the mess she'd made earlier. Leffi calling for her had surprised her and caused her to knock down an entire row of books from a tall shelf. The second floor was not Leffi's favorite – kind of gave her the chills – but she didn't complain about it. Pru's company after so long on the road was worth braving the second floor.

“What a mess,” Prudence lamented as she began to gather up the books that had fallen to the floor. “It's your bad luck rubbing off on me. You really should pray for forgiveness. Ah, these here were shelved in the wrong place to begin with! They belong downstairs. Wait for me here, I'll take them down and come right back.”

“Okay,” Leffi agreed, distracted, for she had found a book in the mess that caught her eye. For several minutes, she remained engrossed in the volume, a history of dwarvish culture. She'd met a few dwarves in her travels and found them to be an exceedingly interesting people. Their craftsmanship was unparalleled. Leffi pushed her glasses up on the bridge of her nose as she pondered the tome.

She heard light footsteps approach and smiled, thinking it was Prudence back. “Pru, have you seen this book, it's fantastic! Someone has drawn these incredible illustrations of Dwarven crafts and they're quite detailed! I may have to borrow it.”

However, when Leffi turned around, she realized it was not Prudence at all who had stepped into the aisle, but a young boy she did not recognize. He was watching her with an amused smile on his face. Leffi slowly closed the book and put it aside.

“You're not Prudence,” she said.

“No,” the boy agreed, “I'm not.”

He looked very young, but he was not one of the scholar children. Leffi knew most elves in the city, so it irked her that she did not know who this boy was. He had an odd appearance. His skin was tan, contrasting with his shockingly white hair. His eyes were blue, even bluer than Leffi's own, reminding her of the bright sky outside.

“Who are you then and what are you doing here?” she asked, feeling disconcerted. Something wasn't quite right about this boy.

“Well,” said the boy, “this is my house, you know.”

Leffi stared at him for a long moment while she puzzled over what, exactly, he meant by that. This wasn't a house at all, after all, it was the Library of Skye.

Her eyes widened when it finally clicked. “Oh, hell. You're not... him?”

His smile widened. “Skye? Yes, I am.”

“No you're not. Don't mess with me.” Leffi's common sense was struggling to catch up with her mouth. There was no way Lord Skye was actually standing here, in the flesh, talking to her of all people. Crap, she hadn't made an offering to him in... well, years. The last time she'd said a prayer to him had been when she was taking her exams. “You can't be.”

“Can't I?” he asked. “I rather think that I can be.”

“Why do you look like a little kid?” She asked the question and then immediately wanted to kick herself. Everyone knew that Skye liked to appear as a child. “Rather, if you're a god, why would you look like a little kid? Shouldn't you be, like, an old man with a beard? You're the father of all creation.”

“If you had a choice,” said Skye, “between looking like an old man and looking like a young boy, which would you choose?”

Leffi giggled, or rather, gave a little laugh that burst out of her with a snort at the end, but she preferred to think of it as a giggle.

“Suppose I would choose the latter,” she agreed. “Though I can't say I've ever thought about it before.”

“I've had a lot of time to think about it,” Skye replied cheerfully. “Now, since we're past the introductions...”

“But we aren't,” Leffi interrupted, puzzled. “I haven't introduced myself at all.”

The young boy who was apparently a god arched an eyebrow at her. “Come now, you think I need introduced to one of my favorite children? Leffi, I've known you for a very long time, though you have not known me.”

“Weird,” said Leffi. “You know my name.”

“Of course I do,” Skye replied, sounding a little impatient now. “Listen, we need to have a little chat. You can't stay here at the Library. It isn't safe.”

“I'm leaving tomorrow evening,” said Leffi with a frown. “And what do you mean, it isn't safe?”

“No, that won't do,” he replied, shaking his head. “I think you'll need to leave right away, actually. If you don't, you're going to bring trouble to those who live here. The dark forces gathering will be drawn to you and wreak havoc on everything in their path to reach you. You might have enough time to pack supplies but I wouldn't stay any longer than that.”

Now Leffi was truly flummoxed. Dark forces? Was he talking about the corrupted monsters that had been attacking others in the realm as of late? She couldn't see why such things would be drawn to her. “You can't be serious. I just got back, I'd like a night's sleep and a hot meal, and I have friends to visit.”

Something flashed in his eyes, like a lightning bolt lighting up a stormy sky. It made Leffi take a step back from him in alarm.

“Listen carefully,” he said in a low, serious tone. “I am Skye, father of creation and patron god of elves. I have come here to give you an important message. Since you were born, and even before then, I have watched over you. I chose you long ago for a champion among mortals. You are one of six. The other five were chosen by my beloved wife and our sons and daughters. So, you're special and I need you to take care of something for me.”

“I must be dreaming,” Leffi decided. “This can't be real.”

“It is so tiresome when mortals react this way,” said Skye, with a deep sigh. He stuck a hand in his pocket and drew something out, which he held up for her to see. “Look, here's a gift for you. It will help you on your quest. It is called the Codex Crystal. I made it myself, just for you.”

It was a twinkling blue gemstone set in silver and hung on a delicate chain. Leffi stared at it in awe. The crystal's cerulean hue was truly beautiful and she found she could hardly look away from it.

“There, now you're listening,” said the god. “Take this and leave the city. Pick a direction and start walking, it doesn't matter where you go. You will meet with another soon, and from there you will collect the other four. Do not lose the Codex, under any circumstances.”

“What does it do?” Leffi asked, mesmerized.

“That is for me to know and for you to find out,” said Skye, grinning. “You will like it, I promise.”

“Well, that's not very helpful,” Leffi said, but she reached out and took the crystal from him. She hesitated only a moment before she hung it around her neck. The crystal rested comfortably against her skin. It felt as though it belonged there, like she'd just reclaimed a part of herself that had been missing. Her fingers traced the silver setting, marveling at its quality.

“Do as I say,” said Skye, “and you will be rewarded.”

“Come on, old man, that's really not enough information,” Leffi said but when she looked up from the Codex Crystal, she found that she was once again alone in the aisle. There was not a trace of the boy who'd given her the necklace. She stood there, utterly perplexed, still touching the crystal she was wearing.

A moment later, Prudence reappeared.

“Sorry, I had to find a scroll for someone,” said the Librarian. She smiled and motioned to Leffi's new adornment. “What a lovely necklace! Where did you find that?”

Leffi stared at her, then looked down at the crystal again. Prudence could see it, and so that meant it was real and Leffi hadn't just hallucinated a meeting with Lord Skye. If it hadn't been a hallucination, that meant she'd just been given instructions by a god, who deigned to come to her in person just to do so.

“Pru,” she said slowly. “I'm sorry but I'm going to miss dinner tonight. Something's come up. I'm going to have to leave right away.”

~END